Friday
November 14, 2025
Grandma woke me up early because they wanted me to take the trash down to the dump. Even though it's a chore,
it's super fun to get out of the house for a while. I like to stop by the local shop for a Monster Energy as well... Heh.
Yesterday, my sister helped me weed out the garden and the yard. I pulled up so many roots that my forearm muscles are aching today.
I never would've even thought it was that exerting because I didn't feel exerted at all. We laid them out to dry so we can burn them later. We also have
been cleaning out the toolshed that the bear broke into. There is no fixing the door, the bear ripped the framing right out. Thankfully it wasn't the house at least!
Thurday
November 13, 2025
Yesterday did NOT go as smoothly. Mom's dogs were in a bad mood and were not getting along with us
at all.
Especially her dogs mom calls "Princess Bitch". She keeps growling and snapping so often that mom
keeps a muzzle on her most of the time. But it's no wonder she is like that, because her other
female dog who is actually Princess Bitch's mother, attacks her randomly. And they all treat this as
a normal thing. How silly it is that her dog randomly attacks her other dog. I don't understand.
I knew something bad would happen eventually. I even warned my mom that she should harness and leash
her dogs even though they're just sitting in her lap. And I was proven right. Random Attacker jumped
up and attacked one of our dogs randomly, which caused one of mom's dogs to jump out of her lap and
join up in the gang, and in the process of breaking apart all of her dogs off our dogs I got
scratched up, floor burnt and bitten.
Afterwards my mom took my advice and kept her dogs secured.
Today, mom's bf took home 2 of their dogs.
It's still not easy because the remaining 2 are the most vicious attackers and must be kept
separated at all times. Which is HARD to do when you have to keep taking dogs outside all day long.
Any movement and her dogs are jumping out and attacking.
I understand that she can't leave her dogs alone at home for months at a time. I just wish her dogs
were trained better. They aren't even housetrained so on top of everything else we're constantly
cleaning up their messes.
Our dogs get concerned about hearing all the growling and barking and I can tell they want to be
nosy and go up to them and sniff their ass and see what their deal is but I can't let them do that
because her dogs will attack them. I tell them "No" and they back off and ignore them. And it's a
good thing our dogs listen to me well because keeping her dogs under control takes 95% of my
attention.
It's just so exhausting but I'm hoping with time things get easier. Her dogs used to attack me on
sight and they don't anymore! So hopefully one day they'll realize our dogs aren't a threat to them
either...
Tuesday
November 11, 2025
Head hurts! Grandparents were 'sick' today and spent most of the day in their room. Mom's bf and my
sister arrived this morning with the rest of mom's 3 dogs. It was bothersome taking care of mom's 4
dogs, but at least some interesting things happened.
Sister wanted me to go with her to the store because she wants more experience driving and she
thinks I'm a good teacher. She also wants me to help her learn how to count change. I also walked
down to the mailboxes with her because mom had ordered some things.
Monday
November 10, 2025
Spent last week cleaning, cleaning...
Monday
November 3, 2025
Thankfully I was able to see my doctor today for refills. I am exhausted from the 2h drive there and
back though. I tried to get out of bloodwork because it is expensive but he insisted... Also being
trapped in a car with mom's bf was unfortunate. We got into another stupid argument. Well, moreless
an argument and moreso me calmly trying to help them solve a problem while he plugs his ears and
screams at me, "SHUT UP! >:( STOP TALKING TO ME! >:( STOP TALKING TO ME! >:("
My grandparent's trailer is small and my grandma is an introvert and she was wanting a longer break
from him. He got angry because his house is cluttered and falling apart and barely has working
electricity. He can't walk into the kitchen to use their microwave because the floor is falling in
and he's too fat and old to climb and shovel through the clutter while avoiding falling through the
floor. He was throwing a tantrum because, "Now I'll have to eat COLD FOOD! She wants me to leave for
an ENTIRE SEVEN DAYS!?"
I understand my grandma's introvertedness and I also understand mom's bf's problem of the
delapidated house so I offered that maybe I could drive down there soon and help clean his house
and, with the help of my sister (his daughter), we could replace the wood again and repair the floor
so that he could actually walk on his floor and use his stuff..
But that's impossible because his neighbor gets mad at him for putting trash bags out for pickup...?
I offered to help in every way possible and came up with so many possible solutions, but the issue
always comes back to his own laziness. He doesn't want to survive on his own. He wants to stay up
here, as a guest in our house, while my mom cooks and waits on him hand and foot while he sits
outside smoking cigarettes and pissing on our wooden deck. This behavior coming from a man who was
preaching ETHICS to me the other day.
He started screaming about how everyone hates him and how nobody wants him around and oh my god,
he'll have to eat COLD FOOD FOR A WEEK. Should have fucking maintained your house, buddy! You don't
live here nor do you even contribute to ANYTHING! You're lucky enough that my grandparents allow you
to stay here as a guest considering your constant childish, abusive behavior.
Sunday
November 2, 2025
I spent the day cleaning my grandparent's house and playing Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc. I
wanted to clean more but Ninny was getting angry that I was being too loud. It's frustrating feeling
like I have to have my environment be 100% neat and tidy before I can sit down and relax. It's even
more frustrating seemingly being the only one to even tidy up. Around noon, I went to the nearby
shops across the bridge with my mom to pick up a few things for supper. After we got back, Ninny
complained about driving all the way out to the 4-way stop... She forgot that we needed to buy ice.
I was trying to explain ourselves, but their TV was so loud that I had to raise my voice to speak
over the TV and she got angry with me for sounding mean. Nothing I say ever matters because I do not
understand how to speak in the correct tone. I feel hopeless.
Tomorrow I have to wake up early to see my doctor for my refills. I've been out of medication for
over a month now. Hopefully I can start to feel better soon. The drive there is over 2h and that's
why it's been so hard lately to find the time. I hope nothing else comes up.